LAKESIDE Premier announced

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After years of work, it is with great honor and enthusiasm that I announce the premier of LAKESIDE: A YEAR WITH JAY LAKE at probably the perfect place in space and time: in the Pacific Northwest during the Hugos!

We have spent the last two years struggling to cut a movie that captured both Jay’s spirit and reality.

With the benefit of a great set of advisors and from some of our online supporters, now we’ve got it.

Making this film turned from a great idea into a great responsibility. At long last, I think I’ve served my role.

I can’t wait to share it with you.


Spokane, Washington
August 19-23 2015

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Ghost of a Film

Well, it’s the beginning of a new year. So it’s time for me to see what I still don’t have finished from 2014.

Two of my films topped my list. The first, a documentary that is likely still years from being finished.

The second is a short film I made and probably would not have made had I not been filming the above-mentioned documentary that had me driving from Austin, Texas to Portland, Oregon every 5 to 13 weeks for two years.

On one of my drives, I listened to two years worth of Escape Pod– a brilliant podcast which acts as an audio book medium for speculative fiction short stories.

One of the stories I heard struck a chord with me as a filmmaker and, as it was ending, I thought – that would make a great short film.

The story was THE GHOST OF A GIRL WHO NEVER LIVED by Keffy R. M. Kehrli.

As it happens, I knew Keffy. We had met during filming of my documentary.

We had a nice conversation and I secured the rights to adapt the story.

I wrote an interesting adaptation, but in the end failed to pull it off as a film. I feel bad about that because I love Keffy’s story and wanted to expose it to a new audience in an exciting way.

Such a waste of a wonderful cast!

Below is a teaser I threw together that may be the only look you’ll get at my attempt to film this story.

[anybody got Alejandro Jodorowsky’s email address!]

The Ghost of a Girl Who Never Lived


Lakeside Backstory


Acclaimed author Jay Lake is a prolific writer of fantasy and science fiction.  He has won a Writers of the Future contest and won the coveted John W. Campbell Award for Best New Writer.  He has been nominated for multiple Hugo and World Fantasy Awards.

Jay and baby Bronwyn - December 1999
Jay and baby Bronwyn – December 1999

Jay’s latest trilogy was inspired by his adopted daughter, Bronwyn.  The trilogy consists of  GREENENDURANCE, and his newest book  KALIMPURA which launches February 2013.


Jay maintains a daily blog in which he writes openly about his life and his struggles with cancer.


This film started as a story about how Jay Lake had beaten cancer.  He had been in remission for several months and everyone was pleased at how healthy he was looking.

We decided to follow Jay for one year, from birthday to birthday (or “JayCon” as he now calls his public birthday parties).

We began filming at Paradise Lost II, a writers workshop in San Antonio, Texas. Jay was a guest instructor with fellow author Steven Brust.  He was happy and in great spirits.

Jay Lake and Steven Brust
Jay Lake and Steven Brust

We followed Jay back to Portland to cover JayCon 2012.  He was among friends and family and was excited about the documentary.

Breakfast at Pine State Biscuits before JayCon 2012
Breakfast at Pine State Biscuits before JayCon 2012

When Jay sat for his first interview in his home, he fondly recalled his madcap childhood as son of a diplomat and his adventures across four continents and sixteen homes before he enrolled at the University of Texas.

Jay's first sit down for documentary
Jay’s first sit down for documentary

His mother, Sarah, sat for an interview and expressed how happy she was at his good health even as she revealed painful memories of a marriage gone sideways and of children she could no longer raise.

Jay's mother -- Sarah Bryant
Jay’s mother — Sarah Bryant

Jay’s step-mom and dad, Jody and Ambassador Joseph E. Lake (ret.) told stories of Jay as an inquisitive wild child and constant adventurer.

Jay's father and step-mother
Jay’s father and step-mother

And, after getting comfortable with the project, Jay’s daughter, Bronwyn, sat to discuss her life as a child abandoned in China who was rescued by Jay and his wife, Susan.

Jay's daughter speaks.
Jay’s daughter speaks.

The story of Jay and Susan’s courtship on the plains on Mongolia and their later decision to adopt a child just as his writing career was taking off is a beautiful chapter of this story.

Father and daughter walk on the beach as dark clouds roll in.
Father and daughter walk on the beach as dark clouds roll in.

Then, as we were filming, life happened.  It started with a call that Jay’s mom, Sarah, needed to be rushed to the emergency room.  She was suffering symptoms that mirrored Jay’s initial presentation of colon cancer.

The entire production changed tone as we were reminded that these are real people and that life doesn’t always follow the script.

Jay and Sarah
Jay and Sarah

Jay’s fear and guilt, as if he had somehow doomed his mother to a fate like his, was raw and emotional.

Jay watches over his mother.
Jay watches over his mother.

After that incident, the energy of the film changed.  We could all sense that there was more bad news to come before we would finish filming.

In August, the devastating news came.  Jay’s cancer had returned and three aggressive tumors were devouring his liver.

Jay reads the results of his scan and sees the bad news.
Jay reads the results of his scan and sees the bad news.

His first words after learning of the news were to his daughter who was sitting on the couch three feet away.

“Bronwyn, I’m sorry.”

The following scene was difficult to film and painful to witness.  It is not what this film was supposed to be about.

As Jay and Bronwyn started calling the rest of the family with the surprising bad news, Bronwyn kept strong and level-headed.  And then a family friend offered her words of sympathy and she momentarily cracked and became the frightened fourteen-year-old girl she really was.  You will learn much of Bronwyn’s strength and artistry from this film.

Bronwyn tries to keep it together as she calls the family with the bad news.
Bronwyn tries to keep it together as she calls the family with the bad news.

Within weeks, Jay was again suffering the desperate effects of chemotherapy.  Can he win this game of “kill the cancer, save the patient”?

Jay after 3 months on chemo.
Jay after 3 months on chemo.

That’s what we’re hoping for and that is now the film we are making.

Official trailer

Trailer #2

Trailer #3

Trailer #4  – 90 Seconds in a Life